i'm a big kid now.

yesterday it was so beautiful outside. gracie and i took full advantage of the sunshine and journeyed around the neighborhood for a walk. as we were strolling down the sidewalk i couldn't take my eyes off my sweet girl. her eyes were growing very heavy and soon she was away in dream land. i watched her little pink lips puckered up and her soft chubby little cheeks. she looked so content. as i pushed the stroller past the houses i started feeling like a grown up. i shared a similar experience i had before while i was on a walk, i guess something about pushing a stroller around a neighborhood makes me feel old. but the thing is, it's not just any neighborhood and any stroller. it's my stroller with my sweet baby around my neighborhood, the place my home resides. the little jingle popped into my mind, "mommy, wow! i'm a big kid now!" and i did feel like a big kid. i relished in the fact that this is my life as a mom, and i felt as content as my sweet girl looked.

as i looked at her, i started on the worry path... thinking of her growing too fast. soon she'll be crawling, then walking, then before i know it, she'll be a mom on a walk with her very own baby. the night before last she slept in her own bed for the first time and slept the majority of the night. i was so happy. and also sad. i missed cuddling next to her and i felt like she was growing up too quick.

i hope she is never too old to cuddle with her mommy. if she's like me, she wont be. (yes, even though i practically clobber her, i still sit on my mom's lap!) i love cuddle time with my baby. whether she is nursing, strapped into the carrier or just needing a rest, she loves to be right up against me. her little hand often rest right on my chest and most of the time she's bunched up my shirt in her hand or is holding onto my hair. even if she's just holding on with one little finger, she likes to be touching me. it melts my heart.

 i absolutely adore being this little angel's mommy. she is so darling and i cherish every moment we have. i know this stage will pass much too quickly, it's already starting to. sometimes i feel like we're fast forwarding through life, the days pass so fast. i press pause as often as i can because these moments are so precious and i want to soak up every single one!